When I was a kid, often times in the middle of the night I would awake to deep pain in my legs. This pain would often come right before a growth spurt. They were growing pains. Did you ever get growing pains? Many nights my parents would take turns coming in and rubbing my legs. The rubbing would help alleviate the pain. They gave up their nights to make sure that I wasn’t in pain.
This week I experienced a new type of growing pain. An adult one. One that has been God driven, orchestrated, and scripted. The problem is that I was caught off guard. Just like those nights of pain as a kid, hurting but not able to fix it without help.
The Lord has given me a great opportunity next week to speak at a national conference. I’m so excited, honored, and nervous! I am incredibly thankful for the opportunity the Lord has given me. But it has caused me pain. Two types of pain. One is just your simple growing pains. Learning to write, re-write, and re-write again my breakout session. Learning to add enough stories to keep it fun and lively. Leaning to improve my skill set. I kind of expected this type of growing pain.
The other pain, I wasn’t expecting. You see, I started to listen to lie of the enemy. Have you ever heard that voice? The one that accuses you or tells you aren’t good enough? It started out quiet, like little whispers of doubt. But by last night it was like a blaring fog horn in my head. And here’s the real problem, I began to believe it!
Listening to the lies of the enemy put me in a place where my emotions where unbalanced, where I couldn’t see my gifts, where I only heard negative comments.
Today I recognized I needed someone to help me with my pain. I need someone to pray with me, remind me of God’s truth, and to give me the tools to silence the enemy. Just like my parents did in the middle of the night, today people helped with my pain. Uplifting words from co-workers, a pastoral staff that reminded me of the gifts that God has given me and encouraged me to lean into them, a friend who walked me through a unique prayer time, all of these “rubs” helped me to see the lies the enemy was telling me and more importantly the lies I was believing.
I’m not sure where you are in life. I don’t know if you are experiencing pain but I want to encourage you, you are not alone. Reach out to people around you. Don’t sit in your pain. Don’t listen to lies of the enemy. Remember that God is there to “rub” your pains, comfort your heart, and provide true relief from pain. I’m praying for you today!